Chapter 28

LINDOKUHLE

Yazi umuntu uyasanganelwa ,I have been calling lebohang and texting her non stop but she doesn't even bother to answer .kahle kahle amantombazane afunani ,what does she want from me?

Yes I'm not the most perfect boy in the world but I deserve some love too ,why can't she just give me a chance .it's painful yearning for someone who doesn't yearn for you ........I love that girl with everything in me and I've loved her from the day I saw her .

What am I going to do ?. I log into WhatsApp and she updated her status . My heart shatteres into million of pieces...she posted a boy with a caption that says "a handsome thug stole my heart and it seems like I'm not getting it back anytime soon ".

Aibo umuntu uyahlanyelwa la ,how could lebohang do this??. I click my tongue then go to grab dad's car key in the kitchen . My mom is making dinner and I grab the keys while mom tries to talk to me and I walk out .

My blood is boiling and I can't believe that she did this while she told me that she's not ready for a relationship!. I arrive at her home gate and I pull the break . I text her that I'm waiting for her at the gate .

After a few minutes she walks out and the rain is starting to pour. She climbs in and I look at her for a moment .

"What is his name ?"

"None of your business "

I scoff, so she is really doing this right now huh?

"So when you were going to tell me that you are dating?"

"I don't know kuhle "

She says fidgeting with her fingers and I sigh .

"Do you love him ?"

She shrugs her shoulders.

"Then why are you dating him if you don't know?"

"Because.......I ..."

She stops mid sentence and I make her to look into my eyes .

"Continue talking"

"It's not that important "

I chuckle.

"You know ,I came here livid but when I saw you all the anger that I had subsided ."

"Why?"

"You bring peace to my heart"

She looks away and I stare at her as she is looking through the window.

"It's painful yearning for someone who doesn't yearn for you ,loving someone who loves another person"

She looks at me and we lock eyes .

"You yearn for me?"

"Everyday lala ...everyday"

"But why kuhle ?"

"I honestly don't know but everytime I see you ,I yearn to hold you ,I yearn to caress your face ,I yearn to hold your heart and I yearn to love you with everything I have in me .I want to give you my heart Lala but it's clear that you love someone else"

"Why couldn't you confess early ?"

"I did...by actions and some words clearly indicated about how I feel about you but you ignored it all because you friendzoned me"

"I told you that I'm not ready"

"But you are now dating ,it's clear that you didn't want me .....you wanted another person who wasn't me"

"But it's not like that"

She says lowly.

"Then how it is?"

She keeps quiet while we look into each other's eyes .

" I was scared kuhle ,scared of falling inlove with someone who will hurt me"

"So you think I will hurt you ?"

"I don't know .....I was just afraid to admit what I feel for you "

" and what is that because i know for the fact that I'm inlove with you ,I admitted that the first day I looked into your eyes Lala"

I say grabbing her jaw and she caresses my hand .

"Love .....I feel love for you and yes I do yearn for you .I started dating thando because I wanted to forget about you and just be friends with you but I can't, I genuinely can't and I feel something that is deep for you "

We look into each other's souls .I see love in her eyes and fear ....fear of loving too hard only to be heartbroken. I won't break her and I'm sure of that .

"I won't break you and I will never will because you have my heart ,if I break you it means I'm breaking me ."

"You really love me?"

"With everything in me"

"I love you too ....but what about thando ?"

"What about him?"

I ask sarcastically and she giggles.

"I don't want to break his heart ,he is a good guy"

I sigh then let go off her jaw.

"I understand...."

"You do?"

" I have no choice but to ...If i love you ,I have to accept the fact someone else loves you and might treat you better than me .I genuinely don't want to give up on us but .....I have no choice"

Her eyes immediately gleams with tears .I have to let go off her ,I can't love someone who is taken .yes we confessed feelings for each other but she is not going to leave him ,not that I expected her too but it hurts loving someone who has chosen who they want .She may yearn for me and love me but does she want me ?.

"What do you mean?"

" you have chosen who you want to stay with .I want you so badly but you don't...you want him not me "

"But i just confessed my feelings for you "

"Yet you don't want to be with me and it's okay because I love you .Just because I'm letting you go doesn't mean I don't love you ,I love you with my whole heart and I just want you to be with someone who makes you happy and clearly that's not me"

" but you do make me happy"

"It's not the same"

She sniffs and I bring her into my embrace.

"I don't know what to say"

"Don't say anything but I think this is our end ...not every love story gets an happy ending and not every yearner gets who they yearned for"

"So i will never see you again?"

"Probably"

She sobs even more and my heart breaks .it's the best if I let go off her than to watch her slowly fall inlove with that guy .I guess this is our end .

MAFUNGWASE

We take a walk around the area ,that's our favorite to do apparently. Taking a walk while our hands are intertwined, feeling the warmth of each other's hands and not saying anything ,just breathing in the same warm air .

As we walk pass a street light ,something plays in the back of my mind as a clear picture. He was helping me to stand up after he almost bumped me with the car and he took me to my house .We had a conversation and that's when we felt the connection , he introduced himself and I did the same then I called him lush.....

"Are you okay chubby cheeks?"

I snap out of my thoughts .....another memory of us was unlocked. Our first encounter.

"Yeah.....remember when you almost bumped me with the car?"

He stops on his tracks and I turn to look at him.

"What ?"

"You had another memory unlocked baby?"

I nod and he picks me up then spins me around ,i giggle .

"Baby you know how great that is ? .....you are slowly getting your memory back "

"I know lush"

We smile at each other as my legs are wrapped around his waist and my hands are placed behind his neck .he slowly brings his face closer to mine and our lips collide.....exchanging the same breath snd spits of love .butterflies are flying all over my stomach and damn I love this boy .

We pull out of the kiss and he drops me so that I can stand on my feet .we lock eyes and I wrap my arms around him . I feel him relaxing and letting out a deep breath .

"Our relationship has drama"

I say to him and he chuckles.

"Yeah but it's worth it , as long as I'm with you .it can have drama everyday "

I giggle and he kisses my forehead then whispers.

"I love you babyy"

"I love you more lush"

After taking our walk together, he accompanied me home and when I get in the house another memory surfaces. This time we are moving in together with my family. The joy and laughter around the house is clear .how me and Aphelele faught ,how we cleaned the house and how happy we were .

Mom calls out my name and I immediately snap out of my thoughts.

"Mah?"

"What are you thinking about ?"

"We were so happy when we moved in here"

She gasps and calls out dad .he comes rushing and looks at me then her .

"What's wrong mawabo?"

"She remembers.....the day we moved in baba . She is getting her memories back hawe mah"

She sobs and they pull me in for a hug .The warmth of love in them is undeniable, they are my parents and I love them whether I have the memories or not.

NARRATED

He stands infront of the community that has gathered in his school to hear what is the community meeting for . The Zulu couple is also there ,looking respectful as ever . Masithole is watching not caring about his dignity at this point because today will be the last day of him humiliating her .

"Everyone i would like to apologize for asking you to come here this late but.....this was urgent "

He clears his throat, sweat dripping down his face ,his ears ringing with fear and his stomach turning .he looks at mr Zulu and he gives him a look that says he must continue.

"I'm here to confess my sins .....I abused this community for far too long. I slept with the young girls, men ...."

The community gasp ,some clap hands and whispers are being shared.

"I even molested a young son of my old friend "

"Hawu !" "Yeyeni bo" "waze wakhohlakala usithole"

The community utters and he wipes his nose ,wandering his eyes around .

"Due to the power i had of being a principal and the unknown loanshark...I did all of this ."

"So you are the loanshark that impregnated my young sister then told her to abort ?!"

One community member asks fuming and sithole swallows his saliva.

"I'm sorry ...I didn't want to ruin my marriage "

"Udakiwe wena ,you have to get beaten"

Another member shouts and the other members starts shouting that he must get beaten ,wanting to get to the stage and beat him but his securities helps him to run to his car together with masithole and they drive away .

Mr and mrs zulu also manages to run away from the angry community that was taken advantage of .

The sitholes arrives at their house and mbongeni takes off his tie then sits down while masithole goes to prepare food for him .

"Please bring me my whiskey, I don't want food "

He asks her .

"Okay"

She says as she takes his whiskey from the whiskey bar and pours it in his glass then looks around and takes out a small plastic that is tightly wrapped. She looks at it then sighs .

"I'm tired"

She mumbles to herself then slowly unwrap it and a white substance is revealed. She pours it in the whiskey then mix it and tidy up everything then walks off .