Chapter 18

LINDOKUHLE

I sent her a dm and she is not responding to any of the texts .I guess she really doesn't like me but why ?. I mean i didn't do anything to her ,I just felt my heart beating fast and felt something that wasn't hate or disgust but warm and yearning towards her.

I really hope she responds, I would like to get a chance to know her better even though she was kinda rude but it charmed me even more . Maybe I will fall for her even more ,who knows she might fall for me too .

LEBOHANG

Arrrgggg ,he is so annoying!!!!!.
Why does he keep on texting me ,like can't he get the memo ?? .I literally don't want to talk to him or any boy ,I will hate him even more now because what the fuck ?. You know what ,let me block him .

I grab my phone then press block . I don't want to start talking to him because he might make me fall inlove with him and I hate boys so I'm not looking for love or need it ,especially from the ITS of the world.

I call mafungwase and her phone rings a couple of time then she picks it up .I greet her and she responds in a sad tone . I frown as if she could see me .

"Wifey ,are you okay ?"

She sniffs .

"No ,I'm not okay boo ."

"What's wrong ?"

"Everything, boo do you think menzi is using me ?"

Using her ?? No he is not .I've seen the way he looks at her and you could see all the love written in his eyes ,this boy is inlove with my bestie and he is obsessed about her .

"Uhmmm no ,I don't think he is using you "

"But you don't know him that much "

" No i don't because vele he is not my friend but boo I've seen the way he looks at you ,how his eyes sparkles whenever he looks at you ,how his dimple fully shows whenever you make him laugh. Boo that guy is inlove with you "

She slightly chuckles.

"But that doesn't change the way I feel right now ,i think lindiwe was right boo .she gave him the cake and I can't because I'm a stupid virgin Mary. "

"Aibo is that why you think menzi is using you ? ,because lindiwe said that ?"

"Yes boo ,i know it's stupid but she was right menzi will always have that desire, one day he will want what lindiwe gave him and I'm afraid that he is going to get it from her "

"But menzi loves you so much ,he can't even handle it when you cry and he respects and love you so much to hurt you ."

"Maybe i should just break up with him before he starts being impatient "

I sigh.

"Have you talked to him about how you feel?"

"No ,I'm scared "

"Then you should try to ,uyeke ukuhlanya if he really loves you as he claims ,he will wait for you "

"I'm just scared boo"

"Talk to him and tell him about how you feel .communication is important my wifey "

She sighs .

"Fine ,I will try to talk to him .Thank you boo"

"It's okay ,I love you "

"I love you more "

She drops the call and I sigh looking at my phone .look at me being a love therapist but I can't even sort out my love life.

SAMKELO

I've been stalking menzi and mafungwase's accounts with a private fake account and I hate seeing those stupid pics of them on their stories. I still can't believe that mafungwase chose that tomato ,I mean she deserves a real man and that is me.

She is not responding to the dm's I sent her by my fake account and her doing that is pressing my buttons, I don't want to do something that will hurt her but no she deserves it .she hurt me too and I will hurt her back ,I am the victim here not her.

I will have to punish her for leaving me ,I mean how could she leave someone who was treating her so good like me ? . I will show her who is the boss and who is supposed to carry her heart ,i am samkelo zulu not anyone else and she will be mafungwase zulu .

My dad peeps in , my eyes goes to the pilss that are on his hand. I hope he is carrying them for him and not me because I am perfectly fine!!!

"Come in dad"

He fully lets himself in and stands infront of me.

"Here"

I look at his hand then him .he is stupid ,i won't take these pills .

"Baba ,I'm perfectly fine"

"Your mom says you've been acting weird these days and that is not okay .it shows signs "

"Which signs?"

He keeps quiet. You see? ,he also doesn't know and i will not be entertaining him .

"Fine ,I will drink the pills. "

He smiles then hand them over .I take them and drink them infront of him ,well I don't swallow them instead I put them under my tongue.

"Done"

I say after drinking the glass of water and he taps my shoulder then gets out of my room .the moment he leaves , I spit them out then threw them out of my window . My parents are crazy for thinking that I'm insane, I'm a normal human being .

MAFUNGWASE

Menzi has been trying to talk to me and I'm trying so hard to push him away .what lindiwe said really hurt me and made me realise that I'm not menzi's first and I will never be his last .he might love me for one thing and that is my innocence ,I mean many boys do it .

They act like they love you then the minute they get your virginity, they leave you like trash .I might as well break up with him because I'm not willing to be one of those girls who were played by boys for their virginity. I mean ,I love him alot and I've never love a boy to this point after pris but I'm scared because what if he is really playing me ?

Let's say he is will to wait ,he will be experienced while I'll be an inexperienced fukwe . What if he realises that I'm boring then decides to leave me for a better girl that is experienced?

My phone beeps as I'm having all these thoughts in my head. It's a text from menzi.

"I'm at the passage, don't make me wait sthandwasami. I miss you so much "

I sigh then grab my gown and walk out of the house through the back door .it is easy to get out because my parents are already asleep and aphelele is not paying attention to me ,so I walk out of the gate . I see him shivering while he is standing at the gate .

The street light is the one that is making him visible and I walk towards him .he widely opens his arms then I throw myself to him .he hugs me tightly and damn ,I miss his smell .he pecks my forehead for a moment while my eyes are closed .

The peace that i feel in my heart when I'm with him is indescribable, I love this guy so much but what if.....

"I missed you chubby cheeks "

He mutters softly and I just nod .alot is in my mind right now and i don't know whether I should break up with him or not ,this is hard .

"Talk to your lush ,I can sense that there's something wrong .kwenzakalani mafungwase?"

"Nothing "

I say on a low tone and he raises my chin ,making me to look at him and we lock eyes .he scans them for a minute .

"Khuluma mafungwase, angidlali futhi kade ukhaliswa yini ?"

He firmly asks and demands to tell him what's wrong .I want to tell him but where do I start ?

"I....I..."

I stutter as I feel tears ,not these damn tears .ngikhathele ukukhala nkosiyami!!

"I saw your girlfriend today "

I say looking away and he makes me look at him while frowning.

"Which girlfriend because the last time I checked ,you were my girlfriend "

"Lindiwe "

He chuckles then clenches his jaw .

"Kephi?"

"At umlazi ,she is cousins with pris "

"So is that why you weren't answering my texts after you came back from the gathering?"

I nod .

"Kinda ,she said something though and it hurts me "

"What did she say?"

"Something about her giving you a nice cake and that you are using me for my virginity or something..."

"So do you believe that?"

"I mean alot of boys want girls for their virginity and you might be one of them..."

"So you don't trust me chubby cheeks ?"

"No i didn't say that"

"Then what are you saying ?"
He asks letting go of my waist and slightly raising his voice .

"What are you saying mafungwase? . Chubby cheeks i love you so much to do something that will hurt you and you mean alot to me .so you not trusting me really hurts"

"Not that I don't trust you but you are a boy and you will have needs ,you might even cheat on me menzi "

"Cheat on you for what reason mafungwase??"

"I don't know...I'm just scared that you will want other girls that will be able to give you what you want "

"And what is that ,sex ??"
I slowly nod and he sighs then tuts his teeth . I feel his warm hands taking mine and i look up to him .

"I love you chubby cheeks and don't think I will ever cheat on you because of some stupid lust . I will wait for you and be loyal to you because you are the one that I love ,no one else .there will be pressure from other people about our relationship but it is important for us to ignore them ,we are teens so we will make mistakes but we will also grow then learn from them because that is what growth means ,we love each other ,support each other ,respect each other ,trust each other and most importantly never doubt the love that we have for each other "

I nod while looking into his eyes .

"I understand lush"

He smiles .

"And like Olivia Dean said..."

"Love is never wasted when it's shared"

We say in unison and he wraps me in his arms then kisses my forehead.

"I love you chubby cheeks "

"I love you more lush"

NARRATED

He walks into his father's office then goes to his office table and opens the drawer. His eyes lands on the gun there then he takes it out and slowly looks analyses it .he smiles maniacally and takes out his phone then looks at his lock screen .he has her picture as his lock screen wallpaper.

"You are mine ,alone..."