Chapter 13

MAFUNGWASE

We arrive at my home gate and we face each other .I look into his eyes and I genuinely don't know what to say to him .it's been weeks since we last talked and our friendship or anything that is happening between us right now is kinda confusing.

"Thank you for accompanying me home ,it really means alot menzi"

I say on a low tone and he smiles nervously.

"Anything for you my chubby cheeks "

I smile then nod while locking eyes with him ,every car that is passing feels invisible, every sound that is within us ,it seems like I can't hear it .

I shyly look away while clearing my throat. I feel his warm hand touching the side of my face and I raise my eyes to connect with his .

"I missed you so much my chubby babyy"

He has tears gleaming in his eyes and for the first time ,I see the love that he has always had for me .He might not say it but I genuinely see it . My heart get warm and filled with joy and love.

"I missed you too "

I whisper while I'm wiping his tear with my thumb and I smile .

He places my head on his chest and I wrap my arms around him .he kisses my forehead then brush the back of my head.

"I love you so much chubby cheeks and it hurts so bad knowing that i can't be with you"

I swallow my saliva. Did he just confess his love for me?

"What do you mean menzi?"

He raises my face to look at him and both his hands are on the sides of my face .my tears are now stinging me and his face is red.

"Can't you see ? ,I'm inlove with you mafungwase and I want to be with you "

He is gotta be kidding me, why now ? ,why couldn't he confess sooner? .Has lindiwe shown him her true colors, now he wants to be with me ?

I push him while my eyes traces confusion.

"Why now menzi?"

"Because I've realized my feelings for you and mafungwase, you are the girl that i want "

My tears fall repeatedly and he tries to get close but I stop him .

"You only realized your stupid feelings for me after I got to a relationship with samkelo, otherwise you would've ignored them menzi !"

"That's not true mafungwase and you know that"

"Yes ,it is true. Menzi you left me for lindiwe, you chose lindiwe over our friendship and I let you go .now that you saw that I've moved on ,you decided to confirm your feelings for me?"

I say the last part pointing at myself and we are now both crying .

"I...I was scared of ruining our friendship okay?!"

"But you ruined it regardless!!"

He looks away then sniffs and I shake my head.

"I'm not your second choice lush and I will never be "

I try to pass him and he holds my arm but I yank it off his grip then walk into my home yard.

I love him but it hurts loving someone who didn't even choose you from the first time .I can't love someone who couldn't face how they felt .This is just hard and I'm too young to be having these kind of love problems.