My heart's desire

My heart's desire

Chapter 38

Jade

*I know he's alone in here . I turn on all the gas inside and dampen a cloth before butting it on my face and leaving all the windows closed and opening all the doors. He's still in the shower. I waited for him for a few minutes with the cloth removed. It hasn't reached his room yet . By the time he gets out of here, it'll be filled with gas . All windows are shut, thanks to Jay . I don't know what he came up with, but it's strong enough to knock out all of his windows . I hear him humming and wait for him on the bed. He comes out drying out his hair with a towel wrapped around his waist. His abs are clearly visible, and i find myself drooling at seeing them up close . His v-line is also tempting . Damn hormones I blame the baby for my wetness. I quickly squeeze my legs together before he notices. Finally, he's done, and his eyes catch me on the bed he's so shocked his eyes are almost budging out. The towl almost fell, but he released a sigh after noticing it was me.*

Jay : I'm out of here.

*Fuck I forgot them . Emma is still hung up and staring . I give her a look and she clicks her tongue before she dashes out.*

Dante : Um

*He clears his throat upon seeing me staring at an empty spot . Fuck I forgot he can't see them*

Dante : Is she gone ?

*I forgot he knows about Emma . It's a good thing he doesn't know about Jay.*

Jade : That's none of your business.

Dante : Look, baby, I'm so sorry.

Jade : Like that has ever solved anything .

Dante : I can explain .

Jade : I gave you a chance . You blew it . You know, funny story. I told you the consequences of playing with me, but no, you still went ahead and toyed with my stupid heart.

*Bloody organ . He attempts to come closer.*

Jade : Don't just don't. You're making this harder than it already is . You broke my trust for you . I never ever...

Dante : Whoa, whoa, wait, baby, please just give one last chance to explain everything. I never meant to hurt you.

Jade : Typical man, same old same old excuse , but you know what? I don't care . I don't give a shit anymore . You had your chance, and you ruined it .

Dante : I know, and I really want to explain to you why I did this .

Jade : I don't need your explanation anymore . Remember ? You blew it ? Seriously, what ? are you dum ?

Dante : Can I at least get dressed .

Jade : Hurry up , you're making me uncomfortable.

*The gas is starting to get here. I close the door, preventing it from spreading faster.*

Jade : Did Drake and Alex know ?

Dante : No, they only met her recently when she came here . Alex gave me an ear full and asked if I was cheating on you .

*I find myself smiling at his thought of me. I can finally relax both my sisters and are finally happy with their partners .*

Dante : Baby

Jade : I'm not your baby.

*I snap . He's already dressed in a pj and a vest.*

Dante : Can you give me just 1 more month .

*Wow, he must be crazy. I look at him and chuckle a little . What the hell was i thinking. It must've been those bloody freaking eyes , the dump cockt smile and awful sense of humor. He's looking straight into my eyes like he's searching my soul . Well, too bad for him, it's empty.*

Jade :You know, on my way here, this was not part of the plan . We were just gonna share a meal and maybe have some sex and say goodbye to you forever. But no, I had a dump fallout and lost the only thing that could've made that successful and I find myself looking straight into your eyes and think to myself that this is the last time I'll ever look into them again.

*I hold my tears from falling down . It's freaking hard they're a bloody waterfall. The fuck? Stupid hormones.*

Dante : Sto...

Jade : No, let me finish. When I first met you, I was so out of myself . In the middle of places lost and needed direction . You made yourself available. You made me trust and fall for you . You let me get deep into this love thing with you, knowing for a fact that we're never mine . How long have I been a fool ? You know what? Never mind that. I have been a fool for so long. I have begged you for attention . I have always bent my ways for you and became patient and became someone I'm not all for you . And this is the thanks that I deserve . A pile of shit ?

*I dry my face free of tears in a jiffy and stare back at him*

Jade : Not this time, my love. I let you in, and you shuttered my trust . I weaked and broke my walls so I could accommodate you and you shit on that. This was the last straw. Oh no, don't mind these freaking tears. It's just stupid hormones. I don't blame....

Dante : What?

Jade : Shut the fuck up . As I was saying . I don't blame myself at all this time . It wasn't me. Infact it was never me . It was always and forever you. It will never be my fault again.

*I stand up and smash our lips together. I kiss him with so much passion and deepen it for as long as I can with our tongue fighting for dominance. I win and pull out . He's smiling and already giving me bedroom eyes. The butterflies are still flying inside of me at the effect I have over him . It's nice to see that.*

Dante : Ja..

*I put my finger to stop him from talking . I grab my wet cloth and tie it around my nose .*

Jade : If I can't have you, then no one else can. I love you.

Dante : What do you mean ?

*As soon as I open the door, the gas already starts suffocating him . He's struggling to breathe. He slowly staggers around before falling on the floor. I lower myself to his height. His vains are clearly visible he's even turning green . I give a perk on the lips.*

Jade : See you on the other side, baby.

*I say before dashing out . As soon as I'm out, I jump over the fence . I rush to my bike and put my helmet after getting rid of the wet cloth.*