My heart's desire

My heart's desire

Chapter 35

Jade

*It's been 2 days without any form of communication with Dante . I can't take it anymore . I'm stressed, and he's been avoiding me by always working from home. Today, I'm finally going to fave the music and go to his house. It's after work and I'm driving home for a change of clothes . The doctors put me on new medication, and it's made me always hungry. If I'm not eating, I get grumpy and moody . I park my car outside and make my way in . I get out of my boycott and get dressed in a new long tight dress that I brought.*

Emma : Oh hell no !

Jay : I leave for a few minutes, and I get back to you wearing like a church goer .

*I freeze for a moment before turning to look at him . He's back. I can't believe it . He's finally back .*

Jade : Jay

*It comes out as a whisper but loud enough for them to hear.*

Jay : I'm back, baby !

Emma: Finally, there'll be a little excitement over here. She's been so boring since you left.

Jade : I have not.

Emma : Whatever you say.

Jay : Emma kept me up to speed .

Emma : Where are you going anyway?

*She says munching on my food.*

Jade : Put that down . Jay, I'm still recovering from your presence.

Jay : Don't worry, I got you covered. We're going for a ride later on, right ?

*Oh, he's back, alright. I smile and nod at him . It's no secret that I missed his ass. He's taught me a whole lot of stuff. He's the reason I'm crazy about motorbikes . He taught all about them and soccer, and cars . They're a part of my life.*

Emma : I'm definitely joining this one.

Jade : I'm seeing Dante today.

Emma : If he didn't give the best orgsms we've ever had, I would've long dumped his ass.

Jade : TMI, that's mine to share.

Jay : Who is this punk anyway, and what is it about him that scares you so much?

*I stop changing and sit down . He always gets me to talk freely . Emma excuses herself, and Jay gives me a hug before laying me down on the bed.*

Jay : Talk to me .

Jade : I love him . I love him so much . He's hiding things from me . I'm going to give him one last chance to tell the truth and be honest with me .

Jay : And if he lies again?

*I give a look, and he smiles.*

Jay : I'll bring a lighter . It's been a while since I set someone on fire.

Jade : I'd hate for it to get to that extent . I think I may be pregnant . I brought a pregnancy test, though, just in case.

Jay : Fuck that's deep . Will you still be able to pull this off ?

Jade : I hope so , but you're here with me again . I missed your crazy ass .

Jay : I know you did . I'm your other half.

Emma : Don't say that you know I'm the other half.

Jay : Idiot you're my other half . I'm still shocked at how you survived without me .

Jade: She was a nightmare.

Emma: Was not !

Jay : Is the hot therapist still around ?

Emma: Urgh I hate that bitch . She's the reason you left . I can't believe you find her hot .

Jay: I'd smash that ass anytime . Does she still have a crush on you J?

Jade : I'm not sure she'll ever stop .

*I get out of the bathroom with the tests in my hands and put them on the table. They both come closer and stare, waiting for the result.*

Emma : Seriously , you took 10 tests?

Jade : Don't judge me. I wanted to be sure .

Jay : I still don't get how you could be pregnant. I thought the medicine prevented that.

Jade : I've been changing them frequently lately. Even though my episodes have decreased, maybe they took me off the prevention pills.

Emma : This is so messed up . I need a strong drink.

Jay : Hit me up, too.

*He stayed with me and waited for the results . A few minutes later, the results came back positive . I am an entire month pregnant .*

Emma : Shit , the punk nutted in you during your first night.

Jay : TMI Emma geez .

Emma : Sorry

*She shruggs. I lay my head down, not believing anything. This can not be happening . How can I be pregnant? Why now? What if my baby gets a mental illness as well. The father is nowhere present .*

Jade : Wow, talk about perfect freaking timing.

Jay : Sh calm down .

*I sob as he consoles me . Emma prepares me a bath, and Jay helps me up and puts me in the bath . He leaves me in the and I cry . I cried for the whole time and memories I spent with him . I cry for the baby he put in me . I cry for the fear of the chances of the zygote survival. I cry for all of the what ifs that may come with this pregnancy. After 3 hours of crying. I stop and get up . My body is wrinkled, and the water has turned cold . I don't feel like eating anymore. I'm weak . I lotion and grab his hoodie, and put it on. I grab my gym tight and take my motorbike keys. Jay is still here, but Emma is nowhere .*

Jay: She'll meet us there .

*I nod at him as he buckles up behind me and doesn't even wear his helmet . I'm not shocked by this he's always been . The leave in the edge kinda guy. He's one of my best illusions . He helped me survive high school and primary while Emma University. As soon as we get there, I ring the bell, and someone comes to get me.*

Jade : Thank you . Is he in there?

*He nods and leaves me in the dining room . I hear giggles as I go into the kitchen . I find him chuckling and the blond smiling at something he said. She's on top of the counter . He once at me in that counter. I feel a lump on my throat. I swallow hard, waiting for them to get out of their bubble . I clear my throat, and they both turn to look at me. Dante's eyes almost look like they're gonna jump out of their sockets .*

Blond : Hey , I'm Sam, and you are ?

*I ignore her and keep on staring at him just as he keeps on staring at me .*

Jade : Are you going to say anything ?

*He clears his throat .*

Dante : Can you give us a few minutes .

*Sam nods and gets herself down, heading upstairs. He comes closer to me, trying to close the space between us . I move back, trying by all means to push back my tears and the tears that are threatening to fall. I release a heavy breath and stare into his eyes.*

Jade : Why?

Dante : I'm so sorry .

Jade : I trusted you . I opened up to you .

Dante : Just please.

Jade : No , just no, tell me why? You could've told me if I wasn't enough for you.

Dante : You are baby , you always will be .

Jade : Stop!!

*I scream as he flinches. He has never seen me screaming or mad.*

Dante : Just give me time .

Jade : I'm leaving . If I can't have you , no one will.

*And just like that, I turn and leave his premises. I don't know what I expected him to follow me . I get more shattered to see that he didn't .*

Jay : This house would look so much better black filled with smoke don't you think?