Chapter 17

WRITTEN IN THE STARS: SEASON 2 17

SBANISENKOSI

How can you be there for a person who's pushing you away? I'm in that situation right now and I'm very tired, he's been quiet all this time. Right now, he's driving to his mother's house. The annoying thing is that I had to mess up Mihle's sleeping routine and feed her early because he was in a hurry and when I told him he can leave us behind, he wanted to argue so I just chose to keep quiet.

We reach Mrs Biyela's house after a while and he drives in, just as he drives in. Nkanyiso drives in as well and parks his car. Nkanyezi parks his then he jumps off the car. He walks over to my side and opens the door for me.

“We need to put her in the stroller..” I say, he nods taking her from my arms. I jump off the car and take her back while he puts the stroller together. Nkanyiso walks towards us.

“Where's Luyanda?” I ask him, he shrugs. I decide to keep quiet because right now, their facial expressions are the same. Nkanyezi takes the baby from me and places her in the stroller.

“Let's go..” He says pushing the stroller in, my heart beats fast as we near the door. I don't know why I'm feeling like this.. we walk inside and I spot Mrs Biyela sitting across the table with a glass of wine in her hand. Because it's a mess on the table, I can tell that she's been drinking.

“Ma...” Nkanyiso says running to her, I heave a sigh and glare at Nkanyezi. He blinks away his tears and walks to her. I lean over and glare at Sethu to keep her eyes off what's happening infront of her. She smiles at her and Sethu continues staring at her, she eventually smiles a bit making Sbani smile.

“It's fine..” She says, she picks her up along with the fleece and walks to the lounge. She lays the fleece on the carpet and places her on it. Before she even knows it, Mrs Biyela's cries fill the house making Sbani's heart sink, Sbani quickly wipes off her tears and caresses Sphephelosethu.

“Sbanisenkosi..” Christopher calls her out, she glares at him.

“Yes?” She says.

“Please help her..she's not calming down. I don't know what to do..” He says, she gets up from the floor and walks to the table Mrs Biyela is sitting at.

“Nkanyiso it's fine, I'll handle this.” She says, Nkanyiso sighs and walks to the lounge. Sbani sits besides Mrs Biyela and places her hand on her shoulders.

“Ma..” She says, Mrs Biyela cries.. having hiccups, Sbani heaves a sigh.

“I don't know the pain of losing someone who was dear to your heart, someone you've been with for years but I feel your pain. This is the man you loved and vowed to respect your entire life, it's okay to cry. I don't want to say it's okay and you should stop crying. You let those tears out, scream if you have to. He was your husband..” She says making her cry more.

“I'm not a comforter but I want you to know that you're always going to have my support and I'm gonna be here for you always. I'm here for you, you've helped me when Nkanyezi broke up with me and when i was pregnant. You were there for me and you still are here for me, both you and my mother. I always tell Nkanyezi that I feel like I have two mothers in my life. One being you..” I say brushing her back.

“I'm genuinely sorry for your loss, he may have done some mistakes but he didn't deserve to die in prison. I'm sorry ma..” I say, she lifts her head up and wipes off her tears.

“Yoh..” She says heaving a sigh, I glare at her while she fixes herself.

“Where's Isemihle?” She asks.

“In the lounge..” I say, she nods.

“I'm gonna be okay, I just need to cry and I know I'll be fine.” She says, she's lying. She isn't okay, she gets up and I watch her walk to the lounge. I decide to follow her and find Nkanyezi sitting on the carpet watching Sethu who's asleep. I glare at Nkanyiso, he's leaning his hand against his chin.

“Is she sleeping?” She asks, I nod.

“She didn't wake up at her normal time, she woke up way ealier so I think she's a bit tired.” I say, she nods and sits down.

“We need to get started with the funeral arrangements..” She says to both Nkanyezi and Nkanyiso.

“Was he stabbed?” Nkanyiso asks, she nods.

“8 times right on where his heart is..” She says.

“If he hadn't gone to jail then..” Nkanyezi says pausing whatever he was gonna say. He glares at me, wait a minute.. I frown at him and he moves his eyes from me.

“I informed our relatives and they'll be here as in like tomorrow so I need us to get everything ready.” She says.

“Wait, Nkanyiso didn't I say Luyanda must be here as well?” She asks, Nkanyiso glares at me.. I don't even know anything.

“She's not needed here..” Nkanyezi says, I frown..he's going to disgust me.

“Can't Nkanyiso answer from himself? why are you the one answering for him?” I ask him.

“Now that's not what you two are gonna do, argue here while we're experiencing a tragedy.” Mrs Biyela says, Sethu starts crying.

“I'm going to feed her..” I say getting up and picking Sethu up from the carpet...

“I need her mini bed...” I say to Nkanyezi, I walk upstairs and go to his room. I sit on the bed and take out my boob to feed her. Nkanyezi walks shortly after with the mini bed. He places it on the bed and watches me breastfeed her.

“I don't like how you always find a reason to argue with me or even attack my friends. Why aren't you attacking your dad? With all due respect, now that he has passed away. I don't mean to disrespect him but you're attacking the wrong person and that person is my best friend who your dad happened to r-pe by the way. I'm not sugarcoating anything, I'm being honest and if you feel like I'm being hurtful towards you or unfair then it's fine, I'm gonna be here for you because he was your dad but you're pushing me away and it hurts.” I say.

This is not the time to be giving up or anything, it's not just the two of us anymore. There's a third person involved now and that's our baby, any problem we have.. I think we should talk it out. He closes the door and sits on the bed..

“I apologize for my manner of approach. I'm not blaming you, I'm just..I'm genuinely hurt and confused. I'm struggling to accept that now both my parents have passed away.” He says.

“You're acting as if your stepmother has never been there for you.” I say.

“It's different though, if she wasn't here then I was gonna be labeled as an orphan and that crosses my mind each and everyday. Now that it has happened, my mind is spinning.” He says, Sethu falls asleep and I place her on her mini bed.

“I'm here for you Nkanyezi, I'll take the shade you throw at me about my friends. I'll take your frowns and everything. No matter how much it hurts, you're my fiance and the father of my first-born. I'll be here for you eitherway..” I say, he heaves a sigh.

“i apologize, I can't hold myself. I'm grieving and it hurts so bad ..” He says, I walk to his side and sit on his lap.

“Am I not here? I'm your partner, your freakin' fiance..you don't need to drown in your feelings while I'm here. I'm your confidant for a reason, don't do that to yourself. If you need to cry then it's okay, cry and I'll wipe off your tears. Please..” I say kissing his forehead.